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Sunday, November 27th, 2005
11:00 pm	another song! Here is another song that I wrote. I don't know if anyone actually reads these and likes them, but I like them and I guess thats all that matters :-p. I thought the song up from thinking about how lucky I am as a person. It's just hard for me to understand how I was brought up in the way that I have been, and I am beyond greatful for that. I feel bad for people that didn't even get the chance to live a happy life, as if they were meant to live a sad story. so this is my song. “Solid train of thought” There are vague paths to take The thought is what fate will make Of our dreams as they seize Realities, the chemistry of personalities Am I in full control? I guess it’s hard to ever know… As I breathe in I feel the wind and I feel in place I’m right in space I can’t explain why I feel it seems I live a dream But it all feels right As for others in life They just find pain and strife Why do they live this way? It’s never fair, how they live so bare, and all we do is stare They aren’t in full control And only fate will ever know As they breathe in Their wounds still deepen They were moving on Living strong But just like that it’s gone I’m not insane It’s just a plain Solid train of thought It’s the silly way Life will play Out this type of game It doesn’t feel so right How people’s lives Are jeopardized these days (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
8:04 pm	"Forgetting About Nothing" So I started a band. I'm doing lead and vocals, my friend ryan is doing guitar and vocals, kyle is doing drums, and matt is doing bass. We have no band name yet but we aren't sure yet what to call us. I would like to call the band Astro. Here's the 1st song we've made together, its called "Forgetting About Nothing." Gimme feed back! Painted a canvas deep inside of me I’ll use paint thinner as color drips to my feet I will forget that image of you inside At least I can say “I still have pride” I am so proud that I am alive That is one thing that I took back from you You have no clue what you put me through I think our ending was way past “on cue” You think I need you but just watch me go Out the back door Need I say more? Ill show you I don’t even care I’ll say no more Just leave the floor And all you can do is sit there and stare Cause I feel were missing As I’m reminiscing All the feelings inside No longer reside Within our lost souls It’s all out of control And I’m glad it’s ended Our time is resented Good bye and good day now Have a great life now And as your face blurs I’ll forget all the words Exchanged during friendship Don’t ask for repentance Cause I cannot hear you Your voice cannot get through Me…. I put that shoes on that I wear on my feet I rise at morning and walk through the streets So why do you think that I have lost control? You did not work me with a damn remote I’ll walk with my legs and I still have my soul I’ll take my own way that is long gone from you You have no clue what you put me through I think our ending was way past “on cue” You think I need you but just watch me go Out the back door Need I say more? Ill show you I don’t even care I’ll say no more Just leave the floor And all you can do is sit there and stare I don't even care... Current Mood: awake Current Music: nothing my roomate is sleeping :-( (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 13th, 2005
8:15 pm	busy year So yeah, school is back into full swing and I can honestly say that I've been busy as fuck. My classes are hard, being an RA is hard, and maintaining a social life while being an RA is hard! And yet, at the same time I have a feeling that I'm going to look back on these years down the road and say that this was probably the best time of my life. I meet so many people in such a short time and it's so interesting living with such a diverse group of people from all over the place. Speaking of being an RA and what not, I did my first good deed! There was a kid that was homesick and was a freshman. He was going to drop out and I talked to him and he decided to stay. Then last night I talked him into joining Hall Council and he became Vice President of my hall! It just kinda made me feel good knowing that I actually made a difference. Im not saying that I was the main influence in his decisions, but I did help him find the answers I suppose. I got a new car! its a 96' Ford Ranger. For once I feel that I have reliable transportation since it drives nicely! Well I have to go to a stupid RA meeting so I guess till next time! Current Mood: blah Current Music: Death Cab for Cutie - Title and Registration (Comment on this)
Monday, August 22nd, 2005
7:29 am	back in school So it's been about 2 weeks that ive been back at Ferris. It has fun and terrible at the same time! Fun because I've met sooooo many people in such a short time. I kinda stereotyped RAs and thought all of them would be nerdy or not fun to get along with. I was sorely mistaken because I've had so much fun with all of them! It's been terrible because they had us work like 13 hours a day training. A lot of the training was pointless and made me want to fall asleep (which in one case I actually did and got yelled at for it). Training ended two days ago and we all celebrated by goin partyin which was well deserved. There was also a closing ceremony for training where everyone got together for ice cream and each hall had to perform a skit for fun. My hall decided to sing lunch lady land and make fun of the cafeterias here because people get sick allll the freakin time off of the food! Well I played guitar and sang, My friend Kyle played the drums, the other RAs danced around and just acted goofy, and my awesome hall director was the lunch lady. it was a really fun time but I got in trouble because first off I made fun of the cafeterias, and secondly I was wearing a hat that said "I love porn" as a joke...The other hall directors didn't really think it was funny though. OOOOOOH WELL! Tubing is the best thing ever! I recommend that everyone goes tubing down the river in Big Rapids at least once in their liftime! Its sooooooo relaxing. I miss everyone from home :-( especially a cute girl I know named Meghan ;-) :-(. So last night I went out with a few people to a gas station to get candy and pop because we were bored as fuck. its 12am, and I decide to drink a 32oz coke! MISTAKE! I could not sleep all night and now its almost 8am and I still haven't gone to bed. Current Mood: tired Current Music: Sublime - What I got (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, July 14th, 2005
2:18 am	midsummer :-P its hard to believe that my summer vacation has less than a month left to go! Sooooo much has happened this summer, but I am loving every second of it. lets see what Ive done so far. I went to the hoedown in detroit, I went to a pistons game vs miami, I played a ton of poker (more lost than won), I bought a new car that is about to die on me a month later, I partied like it was my second job, I took my test for teacher certification, and on top of everything else I've met some pretty cool people this summer. So there has been ups and downs, but more ups than downs for sure! More than anyone else I've been hanging out with karl, wes, scott, and mike. It's nice to be chillin with all those guys because soon enough I'll be off to school again working my ass off. Lately I've been playing guitar like crazy. It seems as if the more I play, the harder it is to put the thing down! Oh well no complains there by any means! I have also been running longer distances lately. I'm pretty much back into full swing for the first time since I injured my leg which feels really nice especially after the doctor told me I might not be able to ever run again. Well now I'm going to bed because I'm tired! Current Mood: sleepy (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 28th, 2005
2:07 am	summer days Well its finally summer, and thank god I don't have to put up with class for a few months!! It has been quite eventful so far. My mini van finally died on my way home from school, the transmission dropped. I just bought a new car which I thought was totally bad ass for about a week (92' Lebaron Convertible) until my exhaust system randomly fell off the car while I was driving. So I am car-less again! Wow that pretty much sucks. On the bright side, I found a full time job at this reallllllllly nice gym called Lifetime Fitness, my bud Karl hooked it up and got me a bad ass position. Basically I will be at a concession stand at the side of an outdoor poll all summer selling pop and hot dogs :-p. So far I've really done shit at home. I play video games, tan, play guitar, work out, and go out with friends. However I do have plans to go to the zoo sometime this summer with a cute girl named Katie :-). I've had really no responsibility whatsoever. It feels nice but it would be nice on the other hand to be independent again and not live with my parents. It does feel nice though to not live with my roommates, no offense to them or anything but damn we basically started to bitch at each other as if we were old couples. I go back to school a month early at the beginning of August to start RA training. I am very excited to actually start the next school year as an RA living in my own room! Hopefully I'll be a good RA :-p. July 1st-5th Karl Gudding has property up north and a bunch of people are going up and bringing kegs! everyone is invited so whoever reads my journal entrys better go lol. In addition, my parents are going to Chicago around 4th of July as well. I won't be up north for all 5 days and I do expect to throw a party at the house while my parents are gone ;-). Last night I went to a bondfire party and drank for the first time since I've been home for summer! It was a good time and I jumped on a trampoline for the first time ever while drunk. Let me tell you...IT IS THE GREATEST THING EVER EVERYONE MUST TRY IT ONCE! The trampoline was even drunk proof and had a protective net around it to prevent people from falling off lol. After that we went to National Coney Island and I got a Large Honey Deluxe (idk if that's how you spell honey). I missed Coney Island! It was gooooood. Today was a long and boring day that consisted of nothing. I ran/walked 5 miles, played guitar, played video games, and hung out with Karl and Mike. I'm kind of in a down mood right now and I don't even know why. Maybe I have PMS? Current Mood: blah Current Music: Oasis - Wonderwall (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
8:58 am	College Crazyness So it's 9am and I haven't sleptall night because I can't for whatever reason, I figure why not update the livejournal that I forgot about? Life has been pretty hectic lately: I just got off crutches from tearing a ligament in my foot, I quit my job at the cafeteria because that job pretty much sucked, I've been doing constant homework right before final exams, I am in training to be an RA, and pretty much just living the typical life of a college kid. I am actually looking foward to the summer so I can slow down the pace a bit, but I am enjoying school never the less. Tim is a dickface and I am anxious to not ever live with the kid again! He's so ignorant and self-centered that he can't even appreciate one aspect of life I swear. I guess he can go have fun on his own drinking bottles of Rubutussin and hallucinating because thats the only way he gets enjoyment out of himself. So a drunk kid jumped out of my car tonight as we were going 20 miles an hour driving home, he did it because I made him mad! He probally is in some pain right now from doing so but oh well he was being a jerk to this girl and saying really mean things so I stuck up for her...thats drunk people for you i guess its been an interesting night! Current Mood: restless (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
10:38 pm	WOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!! IM GONNA BE AN RA AT CRAMER HALL!!!!!!!!! WOO HOO! ....even better i get the whole dang room to myself :-) (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, February 5th, 2005
1:27 am	I can't sleep so I guess writing a journal entry will have to do for now. Well where to start? I guess the reason that I can't sleep is because I'm really nervous about tomorrow morning, I am being evaluated by a bunch of hall directors and RAs for a job position as an RA. I know it's not like it should be a big deal to me, but it is. I don't think I can afford much more of college without some extra help, and I would get free room and board as an RA. I allready went to one interview and that was intimidating.... I was sat in front of two RAs and a hall director as they interrogated me in a tiny ass room. Tomorrow morning I will be put into a group of people trying for the same position as me, and we will be facing problems the interviewers will make. The whole point of it is that they are trying to find the natural leaders of each group and those will be the people who gets the job. Oh well I guess what ever happens happens. On another note, I've had a pretty shitty day. My car is all fucked up and is in the repair shop today. On top of that I had to deliver pizza today. Sooooooooo I had to borrow my friend stacy's car which I appreciate. I also lost my cell phone and I looked EVERYWHERE for it freaking out, I eventually found it, but theres something ironic about that whole situation. Today when I could'nt find the phone I was messing around with my I pod and I thought to myself "at least I still have my ipod." Not even a minute later my ipod gets completely submerged under water! I was PISSED for a good 2 hours as the stupid piece of shit wouldn't turn on, but then randomly it started working again. Alright well im going to see if I can sleep again. (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 27th, 2005
2:20 pm	hey everyone, i just wanted to share this song with you. the lyrics are quite amazing and i think everyone should at least give the song a download. you can download at:www.purevolume.com/thespillcanvas/music . there are two free downloads and u can download these songs at ferris if ur worried about the enforcer block thing. the song is called "the tide" And there's three, count 'em three Children playing on the beach They were eager to learn, To be taught and to teach There's Veronica She's biting her lip As she watches the waves turn white at the tip And there's Vada Radiating with joy And luckily she still can't stand the sight of a boy And lastly there's Dade His hair dances in the wind And he's wondering what love is And why it has to end And he can't understand How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends His mother whispers quietly... Heaven's not a place that you go when you die It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive So live for the moment And take this advice, live by every word Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard And live for the moment now And there's three, count 'em three Children growing on the beach They were eager to learn, To be taught and to teach There's Veronica She's licking her lips As she waits for her real, first passionate kiss And there's Vada Can't admit her jealousy Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty) Lastly there's Dade Still sitting on the dock Ponders his life, and he skips his rocks And he wonders when his father will return But he's not coming back And he can't understand How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends His mother whispers quietly... Heaven's not a place that you go when you die It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive So live for the moment And take this advice, live by every word Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard (forget everything) And there's three, count 'em three Children missing from the beach They were eager to learn, To be taught and to teach But the sad thing Is that they never lived passed the age of fifteen Due to neglect from their mother Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their father She didn't even notice, or pay much attention As the tide came in and swept her three into the ocean Now all her advice, it seems useless No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive So live for the moment And take this advice, live by every word Love's completely real, so forget anything that you've heard And live for the moment now (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, December 16th, 2004
5:44 pm	10 years later.... OK so its been a while since I last updated. I GOT A NEW GUITAR!!!!! its a Dean Zen and has japanese symbols all up the neck it's seriously the coolest guitar I've played. Life has been pretty good lately. My classes were really hard this semester so my grades slipped a bit but not too bad. oh well I partied a lot which was fun :-P. It's nice to be home for a month and relax....I am hoping on running soon again. I see my sports doctor next week so he is going to tell me wheather or not if I can run any more, but I think I can because I havent done much for the past month besides being a lazy shit. Unfortanately the food at ferris is all fattening too so not doing anything for a month while eating terrible food kinda made me gain a little weight:-/. OHHHH well I am eating healthy at home and if I can start running soon that would be bad ass. I think that I am going to quit my job at school which is working at Little Caesars (shittiest job of my life) and I am going to either be vice president or treasurer of my hall, and then start training to be an RA for next year. Yeahhhhhhh im gonna be an RA and bust kids for doing bad things, but hey at least ill get free room and board! Current Mood: relaxed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, October 22nd, 2004
11:44 am	sketch that last entry, my leg is fucked up again....and oh yeah, girls at ferris are skanks :-) and i guess roomates are jus assholes! (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 18th, 2004
8:14 am	run like the wind! Last night, I ran for the first time since forever....I don't think I've ever ran with such a huge smile on my face before :-) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, October 15th, 2004
11:41 am	one fast paced life So school has been pretty crazy lately. I saw a couple of friends of mine from my dorm last year in a bar. I had a designated driver, but they didnt...and they ended up hitting a kid with their car driving home. The kid almost died but is amazingly in alright condition. He has a broken neck though and he haves to wear a halo. It really made me think about how I'm living my life. I know everyone in that car practically except the driver and it just sounds wierd to hear an accident on the news that is with people you know. On another note I've been really busy lately. This week alone I have taken 3 quizes, a test, a exam and wrote a 5 page essay. on top of that I'm working 26 hours all together this week at Little Ceasears. The job is alright I guess... I kinda hate it to be honest a lot of the people that work there are townies and are wierd as hell. There are a few cool people though. The past two weeks have been kinda shitty, and kinda wore me out. It doesn't really help that I've been getting 4-5 hours of sleep a night. Today however is a different day. I told myself "fuck school" and I slepted through my first class today. My other two classes were cancelled today so it's like today is allready Saturday for me. Even though im working Today and tomorrow, I am very happy its the weekend cuz it's been a looooong week. Hopefully something will change and I'll have more good news to put on my LiveJournal. Current Mood: depressed Current Music: Radiohead - paranoid android (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, October 7th, 2004
8:16 pm	i feel like my life is like a large body of water, it finds the lowest possible point and stays there. oh well, at least it cant get any worse i guess. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, October 2nd, 2004
9:55 am	fall is here! Dude its so cold today! It feels like the first real day of fall...even tho its been fall for a week now. I'm kinda looking foward to fall though i love it so i dont mind at all. its kinda cool to look at all the trees from my room cuz im on the 9th floor and the view is just a bunch of red trees, pretty cool. School has been pretty hard lately. I've been doing a lot of homework but it's all good, it's worth getting the degree:-). I am almost ready to run again, even though I should've started a couple weeks ago, but I injured again:-/. I also broke my pinky so thats all wrapped up now.... i think i should just live in a bubble or something to keep myself from doing anymore stupid things! anyways, yesterday I went out to party which I haven't done in a long time which was a good time. I needed to get my party on! and then today im jus gonna work out and chill...theres a football game at home today so i think i might go to that. god i love saturdays, theres nothing to do and its the best feeling ever! Current Mood: good Current Music: the early november - ever so sweet (Comment on this)
Monday, September 27th, 2004
12:38 am	Twenty four oceans Twenty four skies Twenty four failures Twenty four tries Twenty four finds me In twenty-fourth place Twenty four drop outs At the end of the day Life is not what I thought it was Twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You And I'm not who I thought I was twenty four hours ago Still I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You Twenty four reasons to admit that I'm wrong With all my excuses still twenty four strong See I'm not copping out not copping out not copping out When You're raising the dead in me Oh, oh I am the second man Oh, oh I am the second man now Oh, oh I am the second man now And You're raising these twenty four voices With twenty four hearts With all of my symphonies In twenty four parts But I wan to be one today Centered and true I'm singing Spirit take me up in arms with You You're raising the dead in me Oh, oh I am the second man Oh, oh I am the second man now Oh, oh I am the second man now And You're raising the dead in me switchfoot-24 this song, is about the damn professors that wont give me a break for a day. DAMN YOUR HOMEWORK ITS RAISING THE DEAD IN ME!!!!! ive been crazy busy this past week, a bunch of exams taken, i got a new job, went home for the weekend, painted my parents garage, closed my grandparents pool for the winter, did a bunch of homework, and went to a homecomming dance! which i must add was cool as hell. haha Current Mood: fuck homework! Current Music: switchfoot - 24 (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 21st, 2004
11:28 pm	summer is DONE! WOW. what a fast frickin summer. It was deffinately a crazy summer, but interesting. I didn't really want to come home for summer break I admit. But it was nice to have a good long break! I have allllll my shit packed up and im leaving tomorrow around 8:30 am to beat everyone else moving in tomorrow. I'll miss everyone from home! you were all awesome to me this summer and I don't deserve such great friends! As for my roomies and FSU buds, I am very excited to be with all of you tomorrow. I told people my emotions about living away at college, and being home. And the way I explain to people how I feel is that I have two homes, and two families. Here at my real home, I have the comfort of living with my family, loving parents and of course my great friends I grew up with. My family at college would be of course my roomates. I feel that I lucked out meeting such great guys at school, and we are all pretty close. We pretty much are together doing the same thinkthe whole year around. Everyone I met at Ferris practially are amazing people as well. So I really have mixed emotions with leaving for school tomorrow, but of course in the end it is for the better. After all, I do want to be a teacher someday :-p And on that note, here is a song i LOOOOOOVE and it deals with the same subject! O.A.R. - I Feel Home There are few things pure in this world anymore, and home is one of the few We'd have a drink outside maybe run and hide, if we saw a couple men in blue But to me it's so damn easy to see that your people are the people at home Well I been away but now I'm back today and there ain't a place I'd rather go I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know I feel home, and that's just what I feel Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real We're feeling alright headin out tonight maybe off to a dark driveway I say now, some feel bored, and some are looking for more, but we all just decide to stay We got nothing to do, but when I look at you I see something that I know and love And with the crack of a smile we all stay awhile, we know from home their ain't nothin above Well in the end, we can all call a friend, well that's something that I know as true In a thousand years, and a thousand tears, I'll come finding my original crew Cause to me throughout eternity there is somewhere we are welcome to go I said it's something free that means a lot to me, when I'm with my friends I feel home I feel home when I see the faces that remember my own I feel home when I'm chillin outside with the people I know I feel home, and that's just what I feel Cause home, to me, is reality and all I need is something real Home to me is reality and all I need is something real, I feel home Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: take a guess ;-) (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 14th, 2004
8:35 pm	my dog died today, 14 yrs old. he was the coolest dog ever and ill miss him. (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, July 31st, 2004
10:09 pm	summer breeze So this summer has been pretty eventful. I worked the first half at bellacinos pizza, and i had a great time doing it. Now I will be finishing off the summer working at pacific sunwear. I was training for cross country also at the beginning of the summer but that also came to an end due to a stress fracture I have developed in my left femur. It's nothing serious, I am allowed to walk on it. However, it's bad enough to the point that im basically only allowed to walk and do nothing else for 10 weeks altogether. So my cross country season ended before it even started... It kinda sucks but the beginning of the summer was so fast paced, so now I get to actually lay back and absorb in this summer break. My parents left for a week or so, and I decided to have a few parties at my house. those were a lot of fun and a lot of my friends showed up to have a good time. Unfortunately, a certain individual put a hole in the wall in the living room. It is a small enough hole for me not to notice, but big enough for my parents to find when they got home from break. they seemed a little upset, but luckily, by brother moved out on the same week so they dont know if it was from one of my friends or if my brother accidentally nudged it with furniture while moving out. either way my parents can't prove that I had a party. they are suspicious though... also on that note I have been partying a lot lately. I kinda feel bad about all the partyin I've done cuz I feel like I'm being a bad kid. I know that I only live once N' all but I just feel like I could make myself happier in other ways that are much healthier and laster longing, than just the temporary feel good of whatever partying may consist of. IDK I just feel like I've been mindless lately i guess. Soooooo far I've been to three concerts this summer! the DEMF, Dashboard confessional, and the Gin Blossoms w/ Seven Mary Three! They all totally kicked ass and I feel like they were each a major upper to my summer break. I have been playing guitar a lot lately as well, although it doesnt really show :-(. I've been working on a few songs of my own, although none have lyrics cuz I'm embarrassed to sing! but I like what I've done so far. There's just something about guitar thats amazing. I can get totally losed sometimes playing that instrument for hours on end and it could feel like to me being only ten minutes. All I know is that the guitar is my true love and will be the only thing that will always be there for me! haha I know that sounds sick N' twisted...but that's how I roll ;-). I go back to school on the 22nd of August. In some ways I can't wait. I am very excited to go back and be a college kid once again on my own, slowly becomming Mr. Martin the elementary school teacher....or Mr. M if Martin is too hard for the kids to say...haha jusssst kidding. On the other side though, I love being home. I love all my friends at home. I love my family. I love my dog. I love seeing all the random, yet familiar faces daily that make me smile. So it's a crazy, deep, mixed-up blend of emotions that I have right now about moving on to Ferris. All in all though, it's for the better and it will be a good time im absolutely sure. Well today I went out with Jason and his friend to spencer park and visited Nicole. It was a lot of fun and it's a really pretty park with a little lake. I used a row boat for a while cuz I needed the exercise, since i can't run and all, and then we walked around the lake which was one mile all around. After that we went and got this horrible pizza which was off of 23 and shelby and I recommend nobody to ever go to get pizza from there. and then after that Leah came over to Jasons house and the four of us watched Gilgo or something like that(it was a terrible movie dont watch it). but all in all, very good day. well Im gonna leave this entry be now, I feel as if I rambeled on enough and I'd be surprised if anyone actually read this. Feel free to leave a comment or what not, and I would like all of you to at least make one more effort to see me or at least come visit me at work before I go back to Ferris, cuz of course....I'll miss you all again for a whole school year. Current Mood: accomplished Current Music: coldplay - for you (3 Comments |Comment on this)